The Poets light but Lamps –
Themselves – go out –
The Wicks they stimulate
If vital Light
Inhere as do the Suns –
Each Age a Lens
(Emily Dickinson 883)
In Extremis The Life of War Correspondent Marie Colvin. Lindsey Hilsum (Chatto & Windus, 2018)
Becoming Michelle Obama (Viking, 2018)
The Complete Poems of Emily Dickinson ed. Thomas H. Johnson (Faber and Faber 2016)
I recently heard poet and academic Ruth Padel interviewed on the radio, saying how she was clambering down some steep escarpment somewhere remote and scrabbling for a handhold, when she had an epiphany about the dashes in Emily Dickinson’s work – as one does. They are, she said, handholds, breathing points, between scrambles for meaning.
At least this is what I understood her to be saying, but I loved the idea of it. This is the idea I’m sticking with now when I read Dickinson. This inspiring writer of genius whose whole life was a struggle with God, with illness, with the servitude of domestic life. She kept struggling. Although unrecognised during her lifetime – she knew her own worth.
If there is any common thread linking these three volumes (other than that they are all sitting on my bedside table) it is about women knowing their own worth. It is about lighting lamps – shining a light for future generations. In very different ways, this idea epitomises the achievements of three very different female writers.
There is so much about Emily Dickinson that is beyond my comprehension. I love that I could read her forever and still not understand her; she who scrabbled for handholds among the ghosts and maelstroms of the soul, who rummaged amongst eternities and in our concepts of divinity. Dickinson the writer of genius who, in the later stages of her life, barely left her room.
A woman who conversely rarely stayed home was war correspondant Marie Colvin. Colvin was born into a conservative family in small town America in 1956, there was nothing especially poor or deprived about her upbringing, but being a woman in the l950s was more usually a guarantee of becoming a housewife or a typist, rather than a famous war correspondent.
In 1974 Colvin was among the first few intakes of female to go to Yale and whilst there discovered a passion for both travel and journalism. But she didn’t travel the way most of us travel, any more than Dickinson wrote poems like most of us write poems.
As a student at Yale, Colvin wrote for a travel piece for a journal based on ‘the real Mexico’ a country she had visited with another female student.
“Arriving in Chihuahua, our first night in Mexico, we strolled jauntily out for a Mexican meal and a look at the nightlife. Nervous glances began to get panicky after two blocks; men who passed turned to follow, catcalls came from corners and open doors, cars honked suggestively … there wasn’t another woman on the street … friends who had travelled to Mexico had returned with glowing stories about how warm and open the local people were. They neglected to tell us all their friends had been male; we’d neglected to notice all the storytellers were male.”
Hilsum notes: That was typical of Marie it never occurred to her not to do something that it might be unwise or dangerous, nor because as a woman she might face particular dangers. Such adventures, she realised when she began to write, were rich seams like the silver ore in the rocks of Durango. An eye for detail, the ability to conjure a scene and scant regard for her own safety were to become trademarks of her journalism.
Colvin was killed in 2012 after she had herself smuggled into Homs, Syria, when everyone else was trying to get out. All her life she had tried to shine a light on people’s suffering.
In her much lauded memoire Becoming Michelle Obama writes of her childhood in the East side of Chicago during the ‘tail end’ of the 1960s; she writes of teenage years spent returning home from outings with her doorkey pointing outward between clenched knuckles. Growing up in a time and a place when the colour of your skin was enough to make you feel unsafe and certainly second rate. In many places that is still the case. In her book she shows a woman who has tried to strike a balance between retaining her own sense of identity and her life in the public sphere which at times has threatened to be overwhelming.
“I’ve been” she writes “a working class black student at a fancy mostly white college. I’ve been the only woman, the only African American in all sorts of rooms.”
She has also been, it will come as no surprise to most people, a lawyer, a Chief Executive of a hospital trust, and First Lady of the United States of America. This latter was not a position gifted solely as a result of being married to Barack. She ran a stressful and exhausting, ultimately successful, campaign of her own to support him.
In the book Michelle writes movingly about a visit to the UK that she paid – shortly after becoming First Lady – to Elizabeth Garrett Anderson school in Islington, a visit that she has recently repeated on being in London to promote her book. So why this school in particular?
More than 90% of the school’s 900 pupils were black or from an ethnic minority, a fifth of them were the children of immigrants of asylum seekers. I was drawn to it because it was a diverse school with limited financial resources and yet had been deemed academically outstanding.
Watching them she said was like falling back into her own past. She knew:
“These girls would need to work hard to be seen. All the ways they’d be defined before they had a chance to define themselves. They’d need to fight the invisibility that comes with being poor, female and of colour.”
Grace is a word that occurs quite often in Becoming. The search for a precious commodity that can never be bought or acquired other than by pure hearted struggle.
The author writes: ‘If there was a presumed grace assigned to my white predecessors I knew it wouldn’t be the same for me. My grace would need to be earned.’
And so it has been.